4-13-11

Ohkay, so things are finally starting to really turn around for me. I’m just wondering how long it’ll last until my world falls into pieces like it usually does after the first week of greatness. Anyways today i caught him a bunch of times looking @ me throughout the day, but iguess i must be looking @ him to if i saw him stearing at me with some wierd smile on his face.So after school i was with him for like two hours just laying on the grass, he was whispering stuff in my ear. & i’ll reply with a whisper too. we laughed smiled & looked each other in the eye and just staired.so yea that was my day with him & he asked me if iwanted to be his girlfriend. but i said it was to soon, & dat if he can wait to monday. then maybe. my lil’ cockblocker friends were saying just to “handles” already. which got me kind of annoyed…

                                                                                       4-11-11

hmhm. so i havent really been on this thing for a while… soo A LOT of things have happened. so i’ll start from the beginning , Monday . So Monday i was thinking the whole day, and i decided to give up. & i felt really bad for kind of intruding in their relationship. i kinda felt like i was ruining it. which i probly did. So Just as i gave up, my friend made me stay after school & hang out with him. so like me, i did so.He told me he dumped his girlfriend after school… all i could think of @ that moment was that there is a god.

                                                                                                      7-8-11                                                                                                                  

So he wanted to go to the fair today… i didn’t really feel like going due to the thought of rain & freezingness. but i ended up going with all my friends & him my best friend as a guy. He was my partner in all the rides. we just talked ,laughed , smiled , & screamed. not one awkward moment due to the night before. & the best part of the day is on some little ride called the dumbo ride.  you know the elephant… well at first we were all going to go on our own dumbo because they were enough, but then there ended up not being. so the guy told him he must go with my friend because she was in the closest dumbo. but he looked behind to see that i was alone  then he took off his seat belt & jumped into my dumbo . i put my head down to hide from the emberrasement from the little ride . i was laughing & telling him to hide to but he said haha why you hiding ? then i picked up my head for me & him to look into each others eyes with some wierd smile on our face’s. then i can feel him trying to find my hand in the little ride then we started holding hands during the ride. he told me to hide as he put his head down but i knew what he wanted me to do . he wanted me to kiss him. but i’m not that kind of girl. as much as i like him he still has a gf . eventhough he’s going to dump he tomorrow. i’m not that kind of person. but today was a greaaat day!<3                                                                                                  

because i just know… he came up with some crazy game that he’ll give me letters that are in the girl’s name. i knew from the beginning it was me. he eventually made me do the same to me. so we were giving letters & having mini conversation’s, laughs, & over the phone smiles between,every few minutes. i then noticed it had been an hour & a few min. that we been on the phone now. so i decided that i was getting a little tired . expecially because of my sickness. We both decided that 11:00 exactly we would hang up. so as we both gave the last few letters to our names ,we both kind of got the hint that it was each other. but at 10:59 we decided to spell out the whole first name of the person. to fit in the missing letter. so we did so. & we hung up exactly at 11:00 . just as we both had planned it … <3

                                                                                                          4-7-11

When i answered it , it was him. for some reason i would always feel uncomfortable talking on the phone ,for the reason that my family in extremely noisy & questionable. [if that’s even a reall word] He was telling me that right after i left they started losing. & they lost the game. i was his good luck charm. Then he came to the question that been in my mind the whole time… “who do you like, you never actually did tell me” he said. i said i don’t know ,someone don’t trip.& he said i’ll tell you if you tell me. i said obviously you like your gf, duh. he said besides that ,you know cuz i’m going to dump her se doesn’t trust me. another girl that i think is bomb , but i dont think i can ever ask her because i know she’ll reject me. she’s to good for me i’ll be humilated. & i said trust me she won’t do that to you. & he said but how do you know she won’t…

TO BE CONTINUED ON LOVE DAIRY..#7 DUE TO LONGNESS.

                                                                                                                 4-7-11

ohkay… so i did wonder if he did get mad that i left so early ,especially when they were playing so good… depressingly i did get sick when i got home. i was hoping he would text me ,but it was about 9:30 something and i decided to take some medicine & go in my warm fluffy bed. That’s when the unexpected happened , like always. My phone starts vibrating. when i check my phone to see that some one was calling me. i didn’t know the # so usually i wouldn’t answer but for some reason this time was different… i answered it …

DUE TO A LONG BLOG STORY THE REST OF THE STORY WILL BE POSTED ON LOVE DIARY.#5. CHECK THAT OUT TO READ THE REST.

                                                                                                               4-7-11

soo , today i went to his baseball game. I doubt he thought i would actually go. I can tell he was telling all his friends about me on his team because they all kept stairing. Everytime he would go up to bat or play his position[which was back catcher] he would just look at me with his big smile. i have to admit , he did play good . probly the best one on the team.unfortunatly due to the weather i had to leave. my friends that i litertely dragged to go with mekept bugging, that they can’t feel their hands nor feet no more. i felt bad leaving more then half way through the game with no good-bye ,but what can i possibly do? i was starting to feel numb myself.